after so long of not going to school , i realise i miss my sch work
and it not little , is alot ! :C

k la , not gonna be so emo anymore , i know how i feel in my heart can already (:
hmm , after dear went out for lion dance today went bck to sleep
end up slept at 6.3oam like this dont know why can't sleep
but i turn here & there till fall asleep ): overslept till 7.3oam !

reach school at 9.3oam like this , felt so strange ):
so i site there silently , oh . miss nat also know what happen to me
or can say all Dmd de teacher knw , mrs fatimah keep ask me do work ,
but i felt so left out when i talk to that someone she ingore me ):
how ? se me bann ? i feel like crying for the whole day ):
but lucky i still got some kind classmate who asked me to join their group
and i no need to do anything or can say they give me simple job to do its.
left at 12noon something to meet jiejie at amk hub for lunch

after that , she went to driving lesson and for me ?
i wanted to run away from school again but i didnt.
i guaiguai return back to school
Missjean lesson , and those work is so hard):
stress eh ! go back nia jiu got test . cfm fail ,
FML ~

lesson end at 5pm , went home (:
where my sweet lil escape ? ,
i want to watch movie , shopping , oversea ! many many thing that i want to do C:
k bah ,

byebye:)


Stress Stress Stress ! yesh ask me what i stress bout ?
fcuking siann ! :C

afterall this is the only place i can vent anger on :(
when i heard people whom i love love so much say
aiyah , dont care me ler , don say too much to me ler
i felt so heartpain , can dont tell me mah ? say it in eur heart will do

recently , i felt so weak , i got so many bad dream this few day too
dream of both of my teacher keep asking me to go back ,
i thought i send that message to them then jiu settle ler.
end up nope. it isnt as easy as i think of . call my parent
and go home what i heard is call eur teacher . call your teacher
mum and sis talk to me also one sentene - call eur teacher
wt H ! didnt you all know me well ): i dont dare .
i dont ask for help cause i know what the answer is you arldy grown up call eurself

felt so lost , when i sleep , when i wake up , whenever i doing thing
i jiu thought bout school ): but now everything is going to be over .
i make up my last decision arldy will be going back to sch tmr,
then everything will end (:

as long as people around me feel happy can ler
so people , isnt you guy happy now ?
lastly i wont let my parent dissapointed can ler (:

Back to Yesterday, work at 4pm with joey
meet ahtham & yiting at yishun interchange then bus to compass point
then eat our breakfast + lunch , and off to work .
awhile more both of them went off ler):
dear & zhihao came dwn to company me work ,

sorry dear): i make you angry , didnt mean it
i know what you say is for my own good
but i doesn't want my parent to be dissapointed
i know deep dwn in their heart they wish i can contiune to study
so im so so sorry ):

end work jiu went home, my second home :P
slept at 1am sth and wake up at 3pm sth
:D i got long long sleep ,
sadly i forget to bring my make up . and my face so chui with so many freckles):
so decided to cab home , with Jackson & joys.
their lion dance today at Yishun :D so they came here first

ltr on finish ler dear coming my house stay again
i enjoy this few day so much with him , think of tmr jiu ):
k bah end here (:

My heart is crying non-stop , cause from the day i wanted to quit sch
i isnt happy anymore,, chenweiting is confused , lost , sad , ):): ):


Hiee back to blog , finally i got the time (:
long long post eh don want read jiu don read hors!LOL

i forget since when i last update too , oh my ! lols ,
chu wu which is last thursday , all my friend came to my house
im so glad that Evatan came ! hees C:
cause she say it me that she come . lalalla ~
but before that day wednesday chu shi , i went to eva house bainian (:
eat lunch at her house then she teach me dai di , then awhile more
his bro wake up , then after they eat hao and play mahjong !
qinming taught me how to play mahjong , but still not so good at it
lols ! fun day at their house (: hees , with his daddy
i won one round thank to elaine who help me :DD
so after i won one round started to play money , kup with eva
we lose so much end up she didnt want me to pay.
but overall she no lose cause her dad and bro return her money C:
left at 10pm sth to meet boyf cause he coming my house

then we both company my sis to s-11 buy food
didnt eat cause im on diet ! LOL , so fat alrdy . sadd ):
and then when the clock strike 12am sthh
dear gave me a suprise , which is the camera he giving me :D
and i sleep with my sweet sweet smile . hees ,

wake up and stress again ): SCHOOL
dear company me to school , after talking to teacher i make up my mind
to go back , but yet i got the phobia which im so afraid of going back
i don't know what im afraid of , i know im grown up i know everything
well myself but i can't do its. blame me for what im doing
but that make me so fan , not happy at all .
k la skip this. went home prepare thing and waited all my friend came

mahjong first (: and dear was in luck :DD you know what im talking haha
went to fetch huat , qinming & weisheng . and gamble start in my room LOl
i lose :C got no luck at all , and what i know only blackjack . yawn so didnt play

hopefully all of them invite came ,
Ahtham , Yiting , Eva , Jenavie , Alvinchook , Edwin , Robin , Zhihao , Jackson
Joys , Guanting , Qinming , Huat , Weisheng , Chengcong and his gf (:
Ling didnt came )x
kill eur boss . cny also got work ! hahha kidding . hees

left at goin 12am , clean the house and com awhile and to lala land :D

next day , Friday after wake up lunch with dear & sis at northpoint
and off to his house . stay at his house awhile and off to my house
cause we want to find alyssa :D 8pm sth
dear & me and me smal sis company cousin cindy bring alyssa home
play with her till 9pm sth and stay till 1o cousin cindy drive us home :D
next day morning , dear went lion dance
meet eva in the noon

to novena eat , decided to go SSC starbuck ;D
so went my house first take laptop then take shuttle bus to ssc
i use laptop and she study (: haha
till 8pm sth went sunplaza eat pasta mania
then to her house dwnstair cam-whore LOls ,
and home :D

next day is an working day with cousin cindy
and with Yiting too . hahha! tired day ~ Yawnn
end work at 9pm like this waited for yiting then go tgt
cousincindy drop yiting at khatib then we went home
find aunts first cause they are going oversea to china

then went home , talk with boyf till he reaching went over to fetch him LOls
see i so good ;D go wait for you :P
careless boyf ! injured his hand ): and seen so super tired
still company my mummy they all go baibai .

waited for uncle to be back to go chongpang temple there baibai
till going 2 am like this ? then go home , forget e time ler lols
sleeping time !(:

and next day which is yesterday , 22.2
i got really a bad day, haiis suppose to go back school end up didnt.
yiting & ahtham bought kfc for me and dear to eat , thanks girls!
so prepare hao ler go eat . and hais ,,
mummy was so angry with me): i know it my fault to be so san xin liang yi
sobbs, and tears just roll down from my eye.
everything my fault ok ? making people around me feel so dissapoint
esp my oversea daddy, ): sorry sorry sorry !
at that moment i one second also dont feel like living in this world ):
leave this world is the only way that can stop me from thinking
haiishh , i dare to say why im like this
cause something i say i lack of is , confident and can say till now or alway
i don have its. im scare of everything and don dare to face the reality.

i cry and cry ): lucky i got a shoulder for me to lean on .
wiping my tear away telling me what i do he alway be there for me

after that went out with dear , ahtham & yiting
sorry , i wasnt in any mood and got no wei kou to eat anything
i can feel that i can cry anytime . so emotional leh but also not i want
i wish i can go to a place alone and think of what i really want
maybe one day , i run to a place whereby nobody will know where am i .
and settle dwn to think what i really want (:

from somerset to bugis and to sun-tec (:
something catch my eye!! i want to get that but i have to settle my the other thing
when we are on the way to take train something scary which i nva been b4 happen
which frighten me , a old man fall on escaltor still roll dwn , so pain ):
and all of us get stuck there , so siandiaos nobody press the stop button to let it stop
and then become two old man fall . so pain ):
scaryy esclator!

after that ahtham & yiting went off .
i went to boyf house , till 10pm left his house to his friend house
lols. they play mahjong and i watch tv :)
left at 12am like this chengcong drive his gf home first then my
sleep and boyf went lion dance in the morning again
me ? ltr on meeting yiting & ahtham to compass point
and i have to work )x siann
going boyf house tonight .
Byee

longlong post huh Lols










Cny is getting more & more boring
miss past so much , eating steamboat with my sotong family
outing which have evatan , guixin , amanda , michelle , lirong & wenny
for so many year didnt meet up with some of them ):

hmm , been staying at home for the freaking two day !
suppose to go eva house and go dating today end up ...
plus im lazy also , so change to tomorrow :)

sian sian freaking siann ! ):
i get my mummy & jiejie support of doing sth
why not try sth new right ? kkies shouldn't say much
when i get the new then say bah .
don't want to face the reailty that i alway think
future - blank !

hiding in the house for two day really make me feel so emo leh ,
and after this two day i dont feel like going out anymore. wtf !
haisyo , bordem sia!

tomorrow will be better, bai bai gao xin ler yi xia just now
end up .. oh ?
eva house bai nian tmr and blackjack :PP
hopefully guixin is coming too , but didnt get eva message so i think she not free.

so much thing to say but don know how to type
sianzationn ~

imy.